one thursday, i woke up late

i wasn’t upset, oddly enough

i felt at peace

i didn’t rush

i somehow was on time

that thursday was different

 

one thursday, i was gravely sick

i didn’t let this stop me, not surprisingly

i powered through

i made it work

i was at content

that thursday was different

 

one thursday, i met disappointment

i only said hi to her though

didn’t say much more

i didn’t give her time to infect me

my heart was at rest

that thursday was different

 

one thursday, i was annoyed

i brushed it off, oddly

i moved on

i ignored it

i was the bigger person

that thursday was different

 

one thursday, i felt different

i usually frowned at this

i felt happy

i was excited

i liked this newness

that thursday was different

 

one thursday, I was confident

i quite liked this day

i was empowered

i was in charge

that was phenomenal

that thursday was different

 

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Today, I feel like a new woman. I don’t know what sparked this in me, maybe I’m slightly intoxicated on DayQuil, or maybe it’s finally happening and I’m just realizing. I am growing, maturing and evolving into this beautiful, strong, powerful woman who’s opinion on herself is the most valuable one. Not in the selfish way, but in the self-empowering way. I don’t feel like I owe anybody anything, which is usually how I feel everyday. I always feel as though it is my responsibility for everyone to be okay. As though I am somehow responsible if someone the same age as me is unable to manage themselves. I constantly carry this overbearing guilt within me when I make one mistake as though I am not human or as if I, too am incapable of making mistakes. I don’t feel guilty today because I see that making mistakes is okay. I see that I am human, and I am flawed and I am worthy. I chose to write without capital letters because I felt endearing. I also incorporated parallelism because it is one of my favourite writing techniques.